Archive for August, 2009

I can’t decide whether stress is like poison, administered a drop at a time, or like an opponent in the ring of life that sometimes gets a choke-hold. Maybe it’s like another voice that’s always there. Sometimes, when things are going well, stress speaks in a barely audible whisper. As things start to go badly, stress speaks louder. And when your world circles the toilet bowl, stress screams.

When stress screams, my muse can’t hear the voices of my characters.

Will blogging about it help? Hopefully, it will give me another outlet and I can get the stress down to a dull roar. Sometimes muse can speak over a dull roar. What am I stressed about currently?

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My oldest son and my gift for worrying were born on the same day. 

When Zack was an infant, newly home from arriving in the world, I had a fear of letting him cry.  By that, I mean letting him cry at all.  One day, after one of those long nights when mommy and he who cried had been up all night, one of my cousins dropped by to see the new addition to the family.  When she arrived, I was sitting on the couch and sobbing.  She asked what had caused me to be so upset and I told her that I wanted to take a bath.

My cousin blinked a couple of times and said, quietly because she’d dealt with lots of new mothers in the family, “Mary Anne, go take a bath.” I protested that Zack might cry or need me.  She said the baby was in his crib and he couldn’t yet walk or roll over.  He might get upset, but he wasn’t going to get hurt because mom took a few minutes to bathe.  I took the monitor to the bathroom and had a long soak.  Mommy felt much better and when Zack woke, he felt better too – especially because mommy felt like playing.

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A while back, shortly after the death of the late, great Paul Harvey, I blogged about his catchphrase – “the rest of the story.” As that blog post advocated, the rest of the story can be a writer’s best friend.  This post is a follow-up to that one because even the rest of the story has a flip side.  That flip side can be the rest of your story.

A Faerie Fated Forever was inspired by my muse and I discovering the famous Clan McLeod legend from the Isle of Skye in Scotland.  That clan has a faerie flag and shares blood with the wee folk thanks to a handfast marriage between a former laird and a faerie princess. After a year and a day the faerie had to return home, leaving behind the laird and their infant son.  The faerie returned to comfort her son one evening when music from a party drew his nurses away.  Left alone for the first time, the baby cried and the faerie mother soothed her son by wrapping  him in a special cloth.  The swaddling cloth was a faerie flag that could be used 3 times to save the clan. 

Well, that’s a great legend, but my muse had to finish it – to find the rest of the story.  What happened to the laird who let his faerie bride leave without a fight or a fine bargaining session with the King of the Faeries?  Why didn’t he at least try to renegotiate his deal with the King?  And later, surely the then-single laird married.  Let’s say, he contracted a marriage because the clan coffers were dwindling.  How sad his forsaken faerie princess would have been on the laird’s wedding day!  And would her father, the powerful King of the Faeries, just stand idly by, doing nothing at his daughter’s tears?  Likely not.  Why, surely, he’d have visited the groom after the wedding and pronounced a curse on the lairds of the clan! The curse would have been aimed at making sure no future laird cast aside another beloved to wed for money or power.  It would have been a curse of love. 

And so the rest of the story of the McLeod legend became my first book in the Forever Series, A Faerie Fated Forever

While faeries may appear in the books at unpredictable intervals (the wee folk thrive on the unexpected, after all) the series isn’t about faeries.  It’s about what strong alpha males will do to secure their happily forever after.  The whole series is a flip side of the rest of the story.  Real life is too often about what women change, alter, amend or surrender in the name of love.  What do the men face?  What would we like them to face?  Wouldn’t we like to see men who’ve had it all their way for way too long get so crazed with love that they’d surrender pride and duty and even do the thing they’d sworn never, ever to do?  Of course we would, and in the forever series, they do just that.

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I’ve just uploaded A Sixth Sense Of Forever to Amazon’s Kindle.  It will be available on Smashwords soon.  I’ll probably go ahead and publish it to Lulu and Scribd, although I’m not certain.   

My talented graphic designer/computer programmer hubby did the cover, and it has deep meaning for the novel.  I think it’s one of his best.   He’s working to format it for CreateSpace, so it should be available in paperback on Amazon soon.

After the Amazon paperback is out, I’ll upload the ebook to Lightningsource, the phenomenal ebook distribution service I’m now working with.  I hope to publish paperback versions with them soon, because they have a great network of retail partners for ebooks and paperbacks.  Unfortunately, there are some additional costs for publishing paperbacks through LS – namely, the purchase of ISBN numbers.  A block of 10 costs about $250-$300 and in today’s economy with a downsized household and an eldest about to start college – that expense will just have to wait. 

But the book is on the way, so keep your eyes open!  It is Boz’s story, and I think everyone who read Faerie and Golden wants to see how Boz handles his courtship.  Here’s a hint – The Duke of Sedgewick gets struck harder than Nial or Colt.  But then, he had it coming.  

Check out Sixth Sense  and let me know what you think!

UPDATE 08/09/2009 10:00 P.M. from angryoldfatman:

A Sixth Sense Forever is already available for purchase on Kindle, though the page is only partially updated (e.g., no description yet). I have linked to it from the book list page and changed all mentions of the title in this blog post to point to the book itself. The sidebar has also been updated.

Other links will be added to the list as Sixth Sense becomes available via the other sales channels Mary Anne mentioned.

Happy reading!

I’m currently in the midst of a  pre-publication edit of A Sixth Sense Of Forever.  Yeah, Boz’s story.  He played prominent roles in Faerie and Golden as the friend who kept his cool in the midst of Nial’s and Colt’s chaotic adventures.  So he’s got it coming and he gets it – over the top and then some. 

In the course of this edit, given the current state of the world, the job market and everything, I keep thinking – what if we could edit our lives?  Think of the sections you could go back and rewrite.  You could take back the phrase “I quit” or you could say it instead of saying “I’ll accept that.”  You could respond differently to a job review or rewind all the way back to college and major in something different.  You could keep the one that got away or re-script a fight or nasty e-mail exchange with your spouse so that the words you can never take back get taken back.  So wouldn’t it be great to get a shot at editing your life?

Well, there’s a problem with that.  Like the old cliche about woman’s work, editing is never done.  What book is ever the absolute best it can be in the mind of its greatest advocate and worst critic – the writer?   If Shakespeare had another shot at Romeo and Juliet  or if Margaret Mitchell could revise Gone With The Wind would they change anything?  As a writer who knows how I’d answer that question, I’m betting they’d find a hundred or more things they’d revise in what legions of readers find to be great work.  Because if you ask any author whether this book or that play is the absolute best it can be, the answer is always going to be – no, I can make it better.

With this edit of  Sixth Sense I find that the big bones of the story stand up well.  It’s the little details I’m revising….a word here, a phrase there, rewriting a description or changing a comparison.  Mostly, as is generally the case, I find I can tighten up the language to make the story flow along faster and smoother.   The numerous places where I can tighten dialogue, edit lines and revise scenes are likely products of my creative process.  When I sit down to write something new, I make no effort to contain or control – I follow my muse where she leads.  With the hindsight of editing, I can make muse’s meanderings make sense.

I suspect that all writers are prone to editing, but I don’t know if they’re as prone as I am.  I never like to post anything or send it to anyone without looking at it one more time.  If I got a call from an editor or agent tomorrow saying they’d read the posted free samples of Brotherly or Faerie and wanted to read the fulls, I’d make changes.  If they said they’d read the fulls and needed a word copy to present to a board or to revise themselves – I’d still make changes.  I expect that if they published the book and I passed it on a bookstore shelf somewhere I could leaf through it and yes, find things I’d like to change.  I wonder if my favorite writers – Julia Quinn and Johanna Lindsey – pick up one of their old volumes, flip through it and think – Boy, I could do that so much better today.   

The bottom line of the editing process is that as long as I’m growing and changing, as long as I’m working and improving my craft, then I’ll see changes I could make to improve any past project.  If I didn’t see those changes it would mean I’d stopped growing and learning and improving.  And that would be a very, very bad thing.

It’s too bad that we don’t get a chance to edit our real life stories to make them flow more smoothly.  Maybe that’s because the bumps and bruises, the miscalculations and mistakes give us the experience that got us to today.  And maybe, where we are today is where we’re meant to be right now, at this moment. 

We can’t edit our pasts, but we can use that editor’s eye to change our futures.  We need to pull out the story of our yesterdays and see the places we’d like to re-write and revise and understand the spots we’d like to alter.  We can’t change yesterday’s mistakes but we can refuse to bring the past into tomorrow.

Today is Volume I.  Tomorrow is the sequel.